What if....

What if :: so this came to me tonight while I was talking to my sister back in Chino Hills Ca. I had a lot on my mind and sooo many blessing has been coming to our family! Our Heavenly Father has been blessing us and letting us know that he does hear our prayers, and that he answers them when we least expect it ( he really does)... Some times I wonder why? and dont know why....There is some many questions that I have for our Heavenly Father. I try so hard to be a good person and a good mother and "sometimes" a good wife. Then I wonder if it is good enough for him. Time flys by so quickly and Im a true believer that there is a Prophet here on earth. I do also believe that our father in heaven did appear to Joesph Smith. There are so many things that people take for granted that our God has created for us... times like this makes me be thankful for his wonderful ideas.... I gotten over the ,"I want to go back to Cali." thing... I know that he been right next to me and my family to overcome this situation. Honestly, if you really think about it what if we didnt have :

• Cell phones...( I need that to call my sister cause it doesnt charge my phone for long distance)
• Internet...( I could receive pictures from the family that they take that same day)
• A roof over our heads...
• Vehicle
• Airplanes
• Bed to sleep on
• Air condition
• Husband/Wife
• Children ( wait that would be a good thing to not have any... j/k )
• Friends
• Camera
• Clothing
• Garments ( cant wait to get mine )
• Food on the table
• yard sales ( had to put that one in )
• Family
• Comfort/ safety
• Knowing that we have something to look forward to when our Heavenly Father calls us back home.
• Temples
• THE CHURCH.....

I would be lost! Okay okay gettin rid of the cell phones, Internet thang! I know that sometimes I take life for granted and I know I shouldnt... I need to be patient about things and always remember the "Our time, is waaayyy different from God's time" we may want things NOW!!! but we need to wait and listen to the spirit! and that is sometimes hard for me. I need to remember to thank him for everything that he has provided for my family and friends. There are so many blessing that he gives us and never stops giving. Sometimes I need to slow down and take one day at a time cause we need to live life to the fullest!

Can't Sleep...

because the hubby is on graveyard and I hate it! It started on the 6th of July and I still cant deal with it...I have both girls in my bed every night that he is at work. Adam doesn't like the fact that they are in the bed with me. So when he gets home every morning, I put the girls back in their bed! I'm also awake due to Alana wanting another bottle ( which I'm used to). There are so many reasons why I need Adam home, ya ya I'm being a baby but I want him here with me...

1. I need to feel that I'm safe! (I'm safe really, I don't live in a town where is there a lot of trouble.)
2. Who will wake up with the baby for her second feeding at night?
3. I put my face in his back when I sleep, but wait cant do that cause he's gone!
4. If I hear a noise outside, who is gonna check? ( not me! )
5. If I have a nightmare, I cant tell Adina cause it will just scare her too.
6. Knowing that he is at work while I'm sleeping makes me feel guilty for some reason.
7. Trying to have Adina play without making any noise so he can sleep is kinda hard! She is so used of playing with him and screaming and yelling down the hallway.
8. I've been trying to leave the house so he can get sleep, but then the house is so dirty, the laundry is not done and it is over flown the basket!
9. Its only for 6 months, but that 6 months is going to be a long 6 months!
10. I doesn't like looking at him when he just wakes up, when he only gets maybe 3 hours of sleep cause he cant sleep.

Well I have 2 more hours until he comes home and he told me that when he comes home he is just going to stay awake until church. So ladies, if you hear some snoring during sacrament, you know who it is. Let me just tell you now, we are very sorry for the snoring!